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7002 og t'nod

Tue, 01 Jan 2008 02:42:10 GMT

Too many inside jokes to fit on one shirt. My relationship with her has taught me much about everything. I'm blessed with our relationship.
Here's to another good year with her.

second guessing

Tue, 20 Nov 2007 10:41:08 GMT

1 Corinthians 13: 4-7, 13

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

how can love make me feel so negative?

i can definitely say it is love; what else could it be?

fatal attraction?

untimely infatuation?

superficial attraction?

something i ate?

love is patient, love is kind.

i'm getting impatient. so it's not love?

this makes me feel so many varied emotions, it makes me want to physically throw up.

it's not about it being love; i already know that it is.

it's that it'll make you click your heels in the middle of the street type love.

with her of all the girls in this earth! i thought i was over this last february!

best friends make the perfect match, if you only knew that.

it's about not being able to do anything about it.

love is patient; it's just too bad all this time is being wasted.

Superbad

Sat, 25 Aug 2007 04:57:16 GMT

good movie. i thought it would be sleazy like "American Pie", but once you think about it, there are some truths and depth to it.

it made me realize how close graduation is, and how much i want to make the best out of senior year.

it also made me realize how sad i'm going to be when i "ship out". i'm quite serious about this. it's the only path i see which holds a future for me.

errthang is just going so fast. damn i'm going to miss my BFFEy.

and holy cluck, senior year and i don't have a girlfriend. hahhahaha. Superbad. it sounds like a sexy hamburger.

Friday, August 24, 2007

Fri, 24 Aug 2007 07:20:58 GMT

Thin Line - Jurassic 5 ft. Nelly Furtado

good stuff.

hey. a month ago i was in NYC. good times.

thank you

Tue, 03 Jul 2007 03:04:51 GMT

a million thanks isn't enough; you saved my future. i love you very much. you know i have your back.

a toast to both of our future's: may they be bright, productive, and full of ourselves in laughter and smiles.

i want a future...

Sun, 01 Jul 2007 23:26:00 GMT

you know what i mean. =]

i have so much to change i.a. or b.a.:

have a future
be productive toward that future
be intelligent and knowledgeable
not be afraid

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Wed, 20 Jun 2007 00:01:01 GMT

yada yada yada yada. i'm quite the bitch.

wow, 2 weeks already. i really don't know whether to be happy or sad.

on the positive side of things, i've been spending so much quality time with my best friend. sneaking out and what not. sleep overs. disney movies. all the good stuff. i love her to death. i wouldn't know how to live life without her. i hope that she's treated right by whoever she's "talking" to. or else. no, i don't mean to condone violence or anything. just, or else. it's suggestive enough.

i feel shitty that i didn't really get to be my best and be myself around her. i miss her. but at the same time, i feel like she's happy that we're not together. it works out that way. as long as she's happy, it doesn't really matter how i feel.

summer's looking to a very productive time =]. so much i want to do, so many places i want to see. time to up the intellectual ante.

so, what's on the agenda tonight?

Saturday, June 09, 2007

Sat, 09 Jun 2007 03:17:33 GMT

hmmm. i'm starting to disbelieve in humanity. it sucks that i feel this way. it sucks that i'm losing faith in everyone. i have faith and trust in God. but both i'm losing in humanity. in how we waste our time with petty quarrels, in how we don't give people immediate trust. in a lot of things. in quitting after failure.

why can't we just make up?
why can't we just trust?
why can't we just give it our best?

failure

Thu, 31 May 2007 23:57:13 GMT

the worst feeling is not being able to try at all. at least when i try, i get the opportunity to give her my best.

i feel like i let her down. like i didn't get to try at all.

i hope it's just a break.

it's as though i quit on her.

i hope i get one more chance.

Disconsolate Will

Thu, 31 May 2007 09:41:07 GMT

maybe i'm not trying hard enough.
i feel like such a failure already.
maybe i don't care enough.

It's going to work out.